My pc is very slow today, I just wanted to blog a little, but I had to wait for 10 minutes while it opened this page.

Lately I have lot of work.
It is hard to force yourself to wake up earlier to do all stuff you weren't able to do day before, but somehow I survived that crazy week.

Now I guess this new week gonna be huge freedom if I compere the mount of tasks I needed to do.
I enjoy studying all interesting things about world, other cultures, history, places and religions. And more I get to know more I want to travel and see all things with my own eyes.

Right now I have to make presentation about worlds religious tourism and I'm telling you it is so fun!
I can't explain - I want to go to Tibet. There is something about that place, secret, mountains...Just ah, it would be so interesting, challenging, not easy.
Also India would be fun!

Starting my little things and peace rituals. Something for myself. Green tea, candles, meditation.

Time loop

And here I am again. Another Saturday just like week before, but not that it is same.
Lately I feel more and more exhausted and I have no idea how to keep my energy levels up. I must try something new, dunno - yoga, cold shower, tea.

My schedule is pretty tight - lectures, dances, all stuff they give us to do at home.
I know that there must be way how to not to pass out on book, but hell it's just not working jet.

And I really don't want my friends to think that I have forgotten them, cause I have not. Now I realize how hard it is to manage all things and that there is almost no time for my little things.

But I will make it work!

I like my fellow-students, they seem to be very friendly and smart people. Also I like what I'm studying.
"I like what I do, I do what I like" :)

These very last days been filled with joy and just unbelievable emotions. And I have so many people to thank for it. I love them all and there are no words for it, no hug big enough, no smile warm enough that can replace it.
I would like to share my feelings and give them something of my joy and even more for those who feels lost and stuck somewhere/nowhere.

I feel so alive and what's awesome - I feel like me.
You know, sometimes we get lost between all stuff that goes on around, between thoughts, idols, other people and we forget what we are. Yes! I'm so glad to be me.
Even other people notice and it makes me smile.

Now I feel no fear of what's out there, cause as long as I will be me, sure of what is right and wrong there is nothing that can stop me from my aims.
Love is what guides me, stars and belief in good.

Listening Metric - The Twist. Like it, cause it is different, something progressive.

I want to dance, I want to study and I want to read all my books. And after few days I will start to work my ass off for chasing those dreams I have. No matter how hard it might be.

Love, it doesn’t come twice,
Love is just one in lifetime,
It is like your coffins heavy cover,
It is like your day of birth.

It is not love that can
Tease for years and years to tear,
Love like lighting comes –
Comes, flash white and kills.

And that’s how we go. Days fade and brake.
In fire arrows desire just grows.
Lightning! Yours! And again it is not yours,
Flashes your friend and person close by.

One after another burns smiling
Blue lighting hit and bitten,
Lets pass on! Lets pass waiting,
Those who aren’t hit and killed by lightning.

/Imants Ziedonis translated by Andromeda/

And I want to believe, that somewhere out side, in the world there is someone, that one, that one true friend of my soul, other tore hearts half.

How many books on person can have? Like I said in previous post I had to help move some books form old apartment.It was like in library, so many books and I found some really good ones and classic as well. Nobody needed those books but it was like opened treasure chest. I love Shakespeare and now I guess I have pretty much of his work.
Now I just need to find some time to actually read them. There are so many books I think a person need to have and need to read.

Worked all day moving books form one side to other, dust everywhere and they were also a little heavy. Feeling little tired now.

This day was fun. The apple trees at our garden is kind of breaking down, apples are too many and too heavy. So we needed to find some peace of wood that could help them to hold those branches. Had to work a little with axe and saw, now they should hold.

After we had worked for some hours, I decided that it is a bit hot and that maybe I could try to swim. Few days ago I thought that water is cold, but this time it was perfect. I don't know how long I will keep up swimming, guess this is the last week when I can do it regularly. Later it could become risky. I don't want to get sick.

Actually, I don't remember when I was seriously sick. Since I started dancing and caring of my health year ago. Sure little cold for some two or three days is normal, it is nothing comparing how fucked up my immunity was. I feel so much better, much more healthy.

This day was so sunny and full of joy. Played poker and actually started to win. Someone got really angry, but yeah, it's just a game. The part of this game I love most is that you can beat others only pretending that you have best cards. Bluffin' is so much fun!!!

Tomorrow I have to help to move some books at old apartment. Did I say some books?
It is more like other library, maybe I will find some interesting stuff there.

Love my family. Miss mum, can't wait when she will be back home.

Just some thoughts

Time of changes, not only in my country, but also in my life.
It is a weird feeling, that I'm gonna be student. Some time ago I was thinking how cool it will be to be away from school and everything, how great it will be to be actually adult, but now it feels so strange.
I know that it will be fun, but I am also scared a little.

Summer is almost over. No, it is kinda over.
Yesterday a was in my garden, just sitting and listening music and the sky, air everything seemed to be different. More autumn than summer, water is also colder than week before.

Oh, and i haven't seen the Sea whole summer. At sea side I feel so clear minded, so small. My magical place, wide open space with water. What can I do about it?

A promise is a promise to me. 5th and 6th September I have to help with the sport games to those kids with different kind of mental problems. I feel so sorry for them and it makes me so happy, when they are smiling and they are happy.
At some moments it is so hard to believe that everything in this world is fair, maybe it isn't fair.