Seek adventures

I've been here so long time. It seems so exciting just to leave everything behind and go somewhere new. But it won't happen so soon. I'm tide up to this place for now, but I'm doing everything that's in my power to work my way to it. I see it as opportunity to test my new skills, rest form all ordinary. Yeah, I am tired of all this, I'm bored. I seek some adventures.

Also latley I found myself not being happy about getting older. I think it just happens to everybody, but still... Have to grow up.

C'est juste un jeu

How it's been

It seems like it's been years from the last blog entry here. But it doesn't mean that world has stopped or my life.

Words are not just words to me anymore. Meaning, if I say I do something, I do it. I guess it is the greatest part of my development this far. I decided that it is finally time to take some action, that this year it is gonna be different.

I am just a little afraid to dream too big, but I have some pretty good ones in mind and I definitely will make them true.

But with all the good things there are also bad ones, ones that disturbes, ones I get angry about, but it doesn't mean that I give up. I never give up. What is started must be finished.

School time is here. I am still unsecure about some things, but working on them. Soon, very soon everything will settle and I will breath in again.

Trying hard not to drown between others again. It is just so f-ing hard sometimes. It must end, now.

"Again and again I see your face in everything..."

It's been a while

Lately I am writing a lot at sviesta ciba and maybe that is whay this place has been silent.

I am trying to work at all aspects of my life as best as I can. I want to give a reason and goals to every day. And seriously, my life is starting to make sense and I can see where I am going. It feels more right than before. Of course I still can't do everything in one day 'cause there is not enough time for everything.

At the end of my days I feel like there is no energy at all left inside and it lasts till next morning.